DRESS REHEARSAL for the tonebase Community Concert

Martin Thank you to you all! I’m so sorry I could not stay to hear everyone play.

 At first, I honestly felt pretty calm. It was hard to focus on the music, but I was at least calm. Then a few mistakes happened, I felt my hands get tense, and then more and more mistakes. At one point, I remember thinking, “Oh well, I’ve blown it, so I might as well just keep playing.” Thankfully I pulled it together again for the reprise of the A section.

 Thank you, Martin for all your coaching and organization, and thank you to all who played and/or listened.

Martin Thanks Martin! It was great! Learned a lot with my performance, personally, and had a lot of fun playing. And enjoyed everyone's interpretation as well   

Martin I was very dissapointed with my performance...although I was "quite confident, let's say in alert state but quiet" until the first note sound...and my hands were both sooo insecure, shaking, the sound horrible! almost a surprise...like a bad dream....Then I stopped and began again with the Fantasias almost with a feeling of furiosity! I was very upset with my nervous system but I wanted to play it. I did not enjoy at all the music but remained focused, targetting all my energy to achieve the end. And I did. By the milonga my hands were more quiet and I tried to sing with the nice music even after the mistakes...my feeling was a little better...but...I think my performance for the Fantasias  was like 10-30% of what I was doing in the practice room, and the milonga maybe...30-60%...? difficult to be objective.

By the way I would like now to hear my performance ...could not be possible to record the concerts and to send the respective parts to those that want to see/hear themselves?, after sending it can be delete from Tonebase archives, for example. I do not know if the people would like that. All you were so kind and were giving me congratulations...that I thougth it may be was not sooo bad as my feeling or my internal impression?

I say also thank you to all of you guys and Martin of course, for being so encouraging ...really it is a great group and althought yesterday evening I thougth " Maybe these performances are not for me, because of my inability ", today looking retrospectively ...I will continue trying.... the whole evening was very nice, great music and people!!!! gracias a todos!!

Martin Thank you for the opportunity to face the fear of playing in front of an audience, even if it was generous and kind. I felt cold and sticky hands, cold feet and hot body. I was aware that I had studied and my fingers knew where to go but I felt that something hindered their path; at the same time I was an actor and a spectator of the "film", pervaded by a kind of vertigo, but able to "go beyond". I would say "terribly" and fascinating. Fear is overcome only by facing it and I want to do it with other music an guitar lovers as the companions of Tonebase.

ivan paolo you give me also more courage Paolo....to overcome this syndrome....

Martin thanks again for your "Verständnis" (comprenhension?). I understand the issue about recording the concert, all OK.

Martin hello! I felt nervous the whole day! I failed in the places where I thought I was most confident! Then I felt exhausted, and then although relieved I could not sleep! So there you are…. All my respect to you and all professional musicians and artists that preform with such ease and artistry. Please, let’s do more! Not to be a masochist,  but I trust your words Martin, that we will enjoy it and will make it better! One of my goals is to share my music so I can enjoy my guitar even more. Let’s do it every couple of months please. Then little by little I could construct a small repertoire (one of my other objectives) thank you so much to you and to all people playing and listening